You My Bitch Now!!!!!!!!

One of the things I believe that cements a friendship is the ability to laugh through the rough times. I recall one such time with great fondness. Jamie (a dear friend) and I were at the hospital visiting with a couple we both loved dearly. Wanda was on her death bed (I miss Wanda so much!) and Bud stood by like an empty man not know what to do. All we could do was show our love for them both by being there with the family.
It was a very emotional night. A night that seems to drain all the physical energy from your body and soul. Many tears were shed as Bud and Wanda's sons, brothers, sisters and friends mourned over the situation. Needless to say there was lots of hugging and crying going on.
Jamie and I left the hospital about 2:30 am. The night was dark, the roads were quite and we shared very little as we headed toward home. Suddenly a thought came across my mind about something that had happened just earlier at the hospital and I began to laugh. When Jamie asked what I was laughing about I laughed more, so much more I couldn't get the words out. Soon I had to stop the car in the middle of the highway because I couldn't see where I was going. I was laughing so hard and now Jamie is laughing just because I'm laughing. After a few minutes of not being able to breathe I was able to catch my breath enough to put a few words together.
I said "I............kisssssssed........... Henrrrrry!" (Bud's brother)
"What???!!!" "We were hugging and crying and I think I kissed him on the neck or the cheek or something!!!!"
The breathing stopped again. My mind went black as we rolled around the front of the car each trying to find some pocket of oxygen that had not yet escaped the vehicle. After about 10 minutes of pain we both composed ourselves enough to speak. He asked, "What did he say?" I said "Nothing." Then Jamie looked right in my eyes and said "I bet he was thinking - YOU MY BITCH NOW!" Black again!
I don't remember how we made our way home. I'm only thankful there is no traffic on that road at 3am. That phrase lives in mind and is added to list of phrases that configures up great memories. I'm thankful I have such friends with whom I can share such times. Life just wouldn't be worth living with them!

Church Questionnaire

I just took a questionnaire on face book about my views as a member of the Church of Christ. This was the result I got:

You have forsaken your first love and God has removed your candlestick. Your itching ears have turned you against sound doctrine and you have given up true worship. It would have been better for a millstone to be tied around your neck and cast into the sea then for you to lead others astray with your false teaching. You just can't figure out why the Church of Christ across town shuns your congregation and you often find your church talked about in brotherhood papers and websites. You read books by Max Lucado and your favorite preachers are Rubel Shelley, Mike Cope, and Jeff Walling. When people ask what church you attend you wince and say "Church of Christ - but it's not like what you are thinking". Yes, you have fun at church with your small groups, hand clapping, praise teams, and Christmas musicals but you won't be smiling and clapping in HELL.

I laughed out loud when I got this result because it was real! Someone from a neighboring church must have wrote this!!!! I hope they were laughing when they did!

Feeling worthless?

I was feeling kind of down this morning so I googled "I feel worthless" and I found these responses under the heading I Feel Worthless:

stellie - I feel worthless.

shaboogane - Please remember everyone is here for a reason,nobody is worthless your worth more than gold.

123abc - Still feeling worthless? I notice that there weren't a whole lot of responses to this one. It's a difficult one to answer. Not that it was a question... Anyway, the point is that when someone is in the deepest darkest days of depression there isn't a g?dd??n thing anyone can say or do that will make you feel better. Jesus Christ could come down and do the Mexican hat dance in your living room and you wouldn't bat an eye. It is only when you start to come out (and you always do, I promise-the time period varies) that you respond to uplifting words and gestures. So, hang tight, and when you do start to feel something, grab it and go with it- when you do have the slightest motivation-do it.

alex - i searched google for "i feel worthless" and this was the first thing that came up. i feel worthless too. even though i'm not. and knowing that just makes me feel more worthless. and then the fact that i'mspending so much time thinking about myself and my worthlessness makes me feel even more worthless. and then i just give up and do nothing and everything and don't love anyone.

i suck - i'm worthless too.

mil - if your not sure about if there's a God, how can you consider believing that we have a purpose? i feel worthless too right now.

Liz - I kind of liked what '123abc' posted. Though I think if Jesus himself came down and did a mexican hat dance I WOULD feel better. And I'd laugh, and then he'd laugh and then he'd hug me and hold me and let me know everything would be okay and that I am perfect the way I am because he made me and he makes no mistakes. SO just remember that someone somewhere out there is thinking of you and loving you always no matter who you are or what you do, and has an endless supply of love and forgiveness for you. He understands all your worries and woes and tries to help you. You just have to learn to accept his help and love and help and love yourself also. So for those people who are reading this right now and feeling doubt about what I am saying, just know that you have to BELIEVE first. If you don't believe then nothing will happen because you doubt. Erase the doubt and you can see the truth. Just have faith and keep your chin up. I love you and I care. :) No one is worthless, but that you are priceless.

babyjaguar - I feel really worthless to. It seems like I'm being dumped by a whole lot of people right now and that hurts. I feel disgusting. People I really like don't like me any more. I don't have anything to offer in a relationship.

susan - its so hard to look at others and see deep relationships form and then look at my own life and wonder if i just don't have that ability. its scary and it makes me feel worthless, like i am less of a human being than others. even if i have other talents, so do others and they are still better and more exciting than me. can anybody give me some insight into this? i know you don't know me but i am looking for answers and hurting very deeply.

bronski - I feel so very worthless. I too, know I am not, so why do I feel this way? I feel so very alone, even though my family is near. Maybe if I cry enough, I will feel better, less worthless.

ScottyG - I don't know any of these people, where they are from or what their life has been like, however, with that being said, these people are all around me. They are hurting, confused about life and searching for truth and answers. I guess being able to give people God's answers puts real worth to a life.

So, look around- there are lots of people to share the love of Christ with! Open up and add some worth to your own life.